I have never heard the voice of God speak to me, but I've heard God. Sometimes it comes directly from scripture and yet other times there is a "still small voice" that impresses on me, without question that He is near. Pastors often proclaim that we should never have doubts, yet I am sure that my faith is strengthened when first I question what is going on. There is so much I don't know about life and death, though I have experienced to some degree both. In these moments my faith has been stretched and matured. I have often wondered if there were other ways to be more like Christ, but the Bible points out that in our weaknesses we are made strong.
The past six weeks have been extremely difficult for my family and me. Losing Steve has left such a void that I don't think words can adequately describe the grief that has come over us. I realize that many lose loved ones and are experiencing the same things we are going through. However, knowing that we walk this pathway with others helps. Throughout these days I am also reminded that God is never far from me. His love never fails.
There is an ancient prayer that states:
"God within me, God without, how can I ever be in doubt? I am the sower and the sown, God's self unfolding and God's own."
As a child we would go to the swimming pool, though I could not swim. I remember my dad standing in the water with his arms stretched open wide and saying, "Just jump in, I will catch you." Without hesitation I would respond, "Ok, here I come!"
As you travel through life things are going to happen. Some great, others painful but God will always be there to catch you. No matter the circumstances. Don't just stand on the side of life but jump in, that is where real living exists. "Ok God, here I come!"