Wednesday night a phone call came in that lasted only 42 seconds. Those seconds have changed my life forever. It was the call about my brother Steve. "It doesn't look good." Thirty minutes later I would learn that Steve was in the loving arms of our Lord. How can that be? There are too many things still to do, golf rounds to be played, laughs to be shared and lives to be touched.
Upon arriving at Steve's house on Friday night, my sweet sister-in-law asked me if I wanted to speak at the funeral. My response was simple, short and decisive. "Yes I want to, but I can't."
Sunday morning while getting ready for the service I felt quite compelled that I was to say a few words, so I told Susan I would say something. Standing in front of a packed auditorium that morning, I shared two things that I know for sure:
1. Steve is in heaven!
2. At no time, in the midst of this horrible event did God relinquish the throne and stop being God. His grace was sufficient!
Life does not always go the way we want it too. We were not supposed to be there for that moment. I had mapped out so much of my life, and this was never something I had signed up for or agreed to. I would have given anything for our family to not walk down this particular pathway.
Matthew 11:6 "Blessed is the man who does not stumble on account of me." Jesus spoke these words to be delivered to John the Baptist when he was in prison awaiting his death. Simply put, we are not to let go of our faith when things don't happen the way we want them to go. Trials and tests are given to strengthen our faith not to destroy it. Though I am sad beyond any sadness I have ever known, I rest in the knowledge that God has not forsaken my family or me.
Whatever you are going through, heartache, pain, loss or devastation God is there. Remember, Jesus stretched His arms open wide one day and said, "I love you this much."
Waking up early this morning, I walked outside to see the most incredibly beautiful sky. Breath taking! Steve must have joined Mom and Dad on sky detail!